A new day, a new blog Electronic Philosopher. 10 years of original content (emails in response to student essays) will grow, effortlessly, into a massive archive. While I labour to produce one page a week here. Another example of nature's balance (Tentative answers Monday March 14) or just serendipity. (If those are different things.)
If I hadn't gone to London, if the trainee SEO marketing executive hadn't phoned me last week ('I noticed your site has problems with duplicate pages. Have you heard of colonical URLs?' 'Don't you mean canonical URLs?!'), if there hadn't been a power cut on Thursday at my office which prevented me from putting my half-baked (as they were then) plans into effect, if the domain name electronicphilosopher.com hadn't been available...
There is something here to note that relates to my project. How easily one falls into the mode of thinking of the world as a playground, your own personal sandpit, when in reality there is no limit to how bad things can get. As witnessed in Japan. Don't think you can escape by imagining the worst. Because the worst is worse than you can ever imagine.
And yet, it is so hard to throw of this sense that, however bad things get, 'my guardian angel will look after me'. Human beings need this. The average or normal state of mind, according to the evidence from psychology, is elevated, optimistic. Depression is just the routine failure to get into the elevated state of mind that one needs to function in this world.
The reason this relates to what I'm doing here is that I can't help thinking of what I'm doing as searching for a solution which will be found. As absurd as it seems, as it obviously is. Besides the search, so-called, there is nothing. I know, I know, I know. But even as I repeat those words, over and over, I don't really believe it. Why would I be doing this, if I didn't think I was going somewhere, not just treading water, keeping afloat, staring at an unmoving horizon? I believe. The faith of the philosopher. A true Kierkegaardian knight of faith! Ha ha.